Give me freedom just for a day

Ooh, NUS is ranked the 30th best university in the world.

My mum used to work in Johns Hopkins Uni (13th) and Duke Uni (14th).

Wah got new one already: I DID NOT study Venice for O Level 2009 and it Really Never Come Out

HAHAHA LOVE THE SINGLISH MAN

Okay, photo overload plus some blogging.

Words first.

Spent the whole day in the library mugging for Lit P2's The Glass Menagerie - I wrote all my quotes out and divided them all into specific sections like "Amanda's love for kids" and "Laura cares for Amanda" (and all that didn't even come out in the end wth) so I had no time for Lit P1 (The Whale Rider) and Bio, so I chionged Whale Rider and didn't even manage to read through the whole book. I stopped at the carved stone incident.

I now declare that everyone ought to be a Christian because God's really awesome.

I wrote about 10 paragraphs (EXcluding intro and conclusion) for Lit P1's Whale Rider question. I've never written more than six. Okay my first two paragraphs were pretty similar but what do I care. Unseen wasn't as good as I expected - three paragraphs each because I had no time - but I think I just might be able to get an A2. P2 was okay too. Only about 5 paragraphs, and I did the set text quite badly, but oh what the heck I still did better than I usually do, I think. Hopefully I'll really get an A2. I've never gotten an A for Lit before.

READ WHAT I BOXED UP HAHA SICK

For Bio, I really hardly studied at all. Thankfully all the stuff I didn't have a clue about didn't come out. Thank God. I was praying really badly. And I was reading the part on how to manufacture human-insulin-producing bacteria (restriction enzyme, sticky ends, DNA ligase etc) with Chrisvensia while we were ON THE WAY TO THE MPR to put our bags down and go to the hall, and IT CAME OUT FOR Q10 HAHAHA GOD'S AWESOME. I really owe it all to God if I get an A2. Not A1, because I really didn't have the time to study, and an A1's just too much to ask for. (This reminds me of Chinese Os...)

TURN TO GOD! TURN TO GOD!

Study sessions:

Jurong West Primary School peeps! 6A, 6B, 6C.

TERESSA'S BIO FILE OMG

Teressa: Actually this isn't all. I didn't bring the last one-quarter!

Yingyan's brownieHer way of eating it

Chenting AGAIN! We both come here on days we don't have papers, so we keep seeing each other here.

Total disrespect for them, tsktsk ah Teressa.

Omg I really need to cut my fringe. I hate how it parts so much. I have a fringe for a reason - to cover my ugly forehead.
FOREVER FRIENDS

Okay I've got a stupid story to tell.

The Reason We All Love Biology

Yingyan was laughing at this picture non-stop:
(sperms and an egg lah -.-)

and I was like giving her the wth look, so I smsed Derrick (who was sitting a few tables away with his friends) about it. And then he asked her to check this out:

(Praying mantis feeding on dead caterpillar)

and

HAHAHAHAHA WTH WTH

And then Yingyan said Derrick looked like this:

I actually cried laughing.

4th post in a day

DAMN CUTE FACEBOOK GROUP
Facebook I Studied Venice For O levels 2009 but never come out for O levels 2009!

HAHAHAHAHAHA SO MANY PEOPLE WERE BANKING ON VENICE!!! Read the comments omg super funny. It's funny how practically all the Sec 4s '09 in Singapore were certain that Venice would come out. I thought so too but I didn't plan on doing it if it did because I knew a lot of others would. This is so symbolic. Something all Sec 4s 2009 in Singapore will remember. Hahaha.

You know, like, that invisible string that binds us strangers together.

HAHAHA

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From a great '07 Dance senior's Facebook page:
Isabella: "All the si ye yao ping chu lai and the hardwork and stress we’ve gone through and pulled through. It’s really a message from Him to tell us that miracles are do happen so hang on guys! We’re going to create another miracle for ourselves. We are after all, the Honourable batch, the batch who brought glory to crescent. "

They're even meeting after their A Levels.
It's amazing that they're this bonded even after having left Crescent and Dance for two years. She's right; they're the GWH batch, the batch that was the most hardworking academically and in Dance, and the most inspiring + motivating + awesome batch of seniors ever. In fact, the times they led us are the times I miss the most. I wish we could bring them back; I wish I'd treasured them more.

Dance has changed incredibly much. I wonder how much less it means to the Dancers now.

My fellow Crescent Dancers, will we stay as bonded as them years after we've left Crescent? I hope we will. Let's make an effort to.
http://dancersmlg.blogspot.com/

I love Jason Hahn

http://saffyamanda.blogspot.com/

READ THIS READ THIS

"One minute, there was the kind of complete silence on the bus that can only be achieved by a group of strangers doing their complete best to ignore each other. And the next, I jerked awake. It sounded like Madonna had dropped into your local wet market: screams and shouts, high-pitched nattering, and everyone practically squinting out of thick glasses.
...
Like a physical wave of sound, the young teenagers swept down the bus, annoyingly secure in their youth and brazen in the safety of their number. To say the least, the conversation was riveting.
Apparently, one girl had just been in a fight with her brother who had called her a bitch. “And then, hor,” she said, her glasses fogging up with indignation, “wo gen ta jiang, ‘Ay, ni bu ke yi anyhow say one, ok?’ Just because ni bi wo da yi shui, cannot, right! You wait I tell our mah-dur!”
“Jialat, lah!” agreed her friend.
“I really hate boys, you know!”
“Maybe he is a gay?” her friend wondered with all the nonchalance of people talking about the weather.
At this point, I whipped out my notepad and began transcribing furiously. You just can’t make up this sort of thing.
“Ay, wo wen ni, hor, this weekend ni yao qu Mary de birthday party, ma?”
“Where?”
“I think is in Bishan.”
“Yao mai present, ma?”
Amanda, noticing that I was busy taking notes, tugged at my sleeve. “What language are they speaking?” she hissed. "

KAREN FEELS LOVED

jenna says (5:54 PM):
are you free after grad night? :D:D:D
to join some of us for our post grad night party
we're staying over :D
mx, shyan, wanmin, eudea, amanda tan, janeen, jessie, jenna, jieying, samantha tan
mx and i were like
can we invite karen
at the same time ok
so means we WANT YOU

(: I was feeling quite depressed after I asked the four 2c1'07 Dancers if they wanted to sleepover together after prom and Amelia, Lingling and Joan said they're already sleeping over with Gladys, Vana and Sandra, and Sherm was going out with her G3 friends, so that left me with no friends to hang out with. Yao De offered to hang out with me after prom because his prom's on the same day too but I told him I wouldn't be able to; staying in the hotel's different from going out with friends at midnight.

Thanks Jenna and Mingxuan, love you guys (: I just hope the rest will be okay with my awkward-reject presence.

No more Geog ever

but it isn't a happy ending.

OMGGGGG

I didn't do the whole of 4c, which is worth 7 MARKS. "Use Fig. 8 (the cumulative causation diagram) to explain how cumulative causation helped the economic development of a country you have studied." We never really learnt one specifically. I was thinking about writing about Korea and its industrialisation programme but just left the whole part blank in the end. Janey wrote about Korea and Singapore. Derrick wrote about Singapore and the IR (new industry -> need for services -> jobs and income -> larger market, it all bloody links I really should've thought of that). And I left it BLOODY BLANKKK

And I think I'm so dead for 4d. 8 marks. "For one or more examples that you have studied, assess the contribution that changes in education have made to development." Are we supposed to write about education AND another factor, or just education? I only wrote about education.

I wrote one paragraph about how education helps in development, 2 paragraphs (pros+cons) about the Hill Tribe Education Project, and 2 very small paragraphs(pros+cons) about India's population growth. (Women more educated -> marrying later & having less children -> population growth slows down -> country can provide enough resources for its people -> development increases) I couldn't remember anything about the KALAHI plan so I didn't write about it. But everyone else wrote about 2 or more factors!!!! AM I DEAD AM I DEAD?

For 1c I only wrote one paragraph describing everything about the respiration and photosynthesis parts of the diagram, and then i crapped my own crap for the rest of the few paragraphs about the plants taking in carbon dioxide for photosynthesis and releasing oxygen for respiration without making any reference at all to the diagram. HOW???

Lit and Bio on Friday. I don't know which I should focus on; I don't know if I screwed Chem or Comb. Humans more and I need a good grade for at least 1 Science and 1 Humans subject. This sucks.

I feel a little hungry but I also feel like puking from full-ness because of lunch (which was six and a half hours ago). Am I still stressed? Should I eat and risk puking? Eee.

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My crap brother's Henry Park friends are hilarious.
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Total stress-reliever: Jason Hahn's rants

K I'm going to study (and pigs WILL fly)

Okay, I just posted a long post but here's just a little something more:

HAHAHAHAHAHA *ego inflates*

And I'm not studying

"Har, is it safe to leave our stuff here and go for lunch?"

Spent about 7-8 hours in the library studying... HALF of Natural Veg. Shit I suck. How am I going to finish the entire E. Geog syllabus by tomorrow? And I was planning to do some Lit too. -.-

They were doing hilarious hand signs etc while studying Physics. I just sat there laughing like an idiot. Couldn't even hold the camera properly.

Isn't the lighting awesome btw? Cool simple camera effects (:

Unprepared

Trying to blot his face HAHAHA

Saw Chen Ting there (for the second time)!

Bought this for the first time! When I was young I always really wanted it but I was allergic to chocolates until I was 10, and after my recovery from the allergy my mum never allowed me to get it. Finally, I've uh, realised my childhood dream!

Derrick: Wah lao I feel so cheated, this thing is supposed to be soya milk but all it has is "extract of soya bean". So I'm basically just drinking water with sugar. And it says "Soya goodness", so ironic.

Rachel's "WOW!" is contagious!

RACHEL HAS GOTTEN ME HOOKED ONTO SHINEE, JIAYI IF YOU SEE THIS I MEAN IT!!! DAMN HOT DAMN HOT

Me: When I go home I hope I'll study.

Derrick: Karen, if you study at home, pigs will fly.

I actually think so too, but man I'll try.

Bloody fuel cell

Yesterday I felt like puking while eating breakfast, skipped lunch and felt like puking while eating dinner.

Stress helps lose weight! YES! Maybe I won't become that fat after Os after all.

BONDING SINGAPORE CAME OUT HAHAHAHAHAHA

Thank goodness I didn't study Venice. Mugged like mad for Healthcare but revised Bonding and D&D too. Thank goodness at least one Sec 3 topic came out. Screwed up my SBQs pretty badly though, especially 1(b) and 1(c).

1b: How similar are these two sources as evidence about the Iraqi invasion of Kuwait?

1c: How useful is this source as evidence about the Iraqi invasion of Kuwait?

Like, how much can you write about evidence of something? I wrote something like one source explicitly mentioned invading Kuwait while the other only subtly hinted it. WAH LAOOOOO LAHHHH. And my second paragraph was about the reasons for invasion, because really, how much can you write about evidence?! ): I hope they'll accept it.

And my purpose for 1(a) was stupid. I wrote something like "The purpose of the source is to criticise the Iraqi soldiers for causing mass destruction by invading Kuwait, so that the Iraqi soldiers will think twice about attacking and killing the people and spare a thought for the Kuwaitis."

WAH LAO JUST SHOOT ME LAH!!!!!!!!

Chemistry, I really hope I'll get an A1. Really really really.. but I got that stupid question about the hydrogen fuel cell and ethanol totally wrong. I was talking to Bryson and Derrick and both said that ethanol's a "carbon neutral" fuel because ethanol's made from fermentation and the plants take in carbon dioxide as well. *smacks head* Wah lao lah I left that one blank. ))):

And I was really tired during the paper. I ACTUALLY SLEPT A LITTLE OKAY!!! OMG!!! I ended up writing a lot of crap so I asked for a new question paper. Sigh. I really want A1s.

I want an A1 for SS too but it's really improbable... I need good grades for at least 1 Humanities and 1 Science subject. And I know I won't get an A1 for Lit. It's kind of stupid that I'm aiming for nothing but A1s now but... after getting an A1 for Chinese, I believe it's possible. But I didn't do as good as I should've for the papers lah. Shooooootttt meeeee

Jieying and Janeen are totally the cutest pair

Jan and Mad, if you happen to be reading this, DOESN'T THE GUY AT THE BACK LOOK LIKE WEWE?! This is some theft advert by the police force LOL

Yingyan: Karen, I think my umbrella's damn colourful and cute!

*after a while* Karen, I'm beginning to think my umbrella looks gay leh.

Me: HAHAHA no lah it's cute lah.

Yingyan: *whines* it's gaaaayyyyy! ))): ...No lah it's cute.

Bryson, Derrick, Rachel and Yingyan - what's with me and primary schoolmates recently? :/

Studybuddies

Went to Bukit Batok CC to study with Rachel and Derrick.

Rachel was extremely fascinated by Derrick's phone because it's got a mouse and keypad HAHAHA we were both laughing at her awed expression. Suddenly I didn't feel like that much of a technological ahma anymore.

Passing notes like we used to when we sat beside each other in primary school!

Teehee candid unglam shots!

I really need to cut my fringe. OMG IS MY UPPER ARM REALLY THAT FAT?! NO RIGHT?!
Derrick's terrible photo-taking skills.

Okay, I'm banking on Healthcare, Bonding Singapore and D&D. I won't do Venice even if it comes out because there'll be a lot of people doing it anyway. Maybe I'll read up a little on Globalisation even though I really don't feel like doing so ):

CHEM OMG I WANT AN A FOR CHEM. I need an A1 for SS too, actually, but it's kind of impossible; I got 60 for Prelims and I doubt I'll do much better this time. I need an A for at least one Science and one Humanities subject. I want an A for Chem and Combined Humanities (Geography + SS). I know I won't be able to get a good grade for Literature so I really need to do well for Comb. Humans. Die die die.

Pray for me!!!

Swearing in Korean

Derrick and I met at J. East Library today at 10am to study but the library was CLOSED for some STAFF PARTY. Like, what?! Ended up going to Rachel's house. Had a fun time. Didn't really revise much apart from Organic Chem so it wasn't really productive but Derrick provided us with some great Chem questions.

Going to Bukit Batok Community Centre with the both of them to study again tomorrow. I don't know if it's the best idea though, because although it's apparently very quiet and the tables are huge, I usually have to recite stuff to myself to memorise it, and we'll be memorising Social Studies and Chem. See how it goes lah (:

And Derrick and I just realised today that in P5 Mrs Foo gave the both of us files. I think it was just the both of us, but I can't remember what it was for. Derrick says it was probably for some English thing. Awesome. I still have the file.

Maybe I'll try to call Mrs Foo and ask her to come back to JWPS when we ex-6B'05-ers go back to the school (probably on 18th Nov). I'm organising it, hahaha I'm so proud of myself because I managed to contact quite a number of 6B'05-ers, including those most of us have lost contact with since we parted in '05 like Haris and Zeng Xuan and Huai Shen. Looking forward to it (((:

My dad took the camera today and I realised how huge a part of my life photo-taking has become. I can't live without my camera. I've got a terrible memory so I use pictures and my blog to record memories and experiences down so that I won't forget them. So I used my handphone to take pictures. Lousy resolution but it's better than nothing.

The both of them were going crazy over Korean songs while I sat there and laughed at them.

HAHA STUPID DERRICK ANYHOW TAKE (What's stupid in Korean again?)

God reigns

A Math Paper 2 was good. Slept for about 2.5 hours at Sumay's house so I was fine during the paper. I think I should be able to get about 97/100 or more, so it'll make up for all the marks I lost in Paper 1.

Thank you God. Prayed like craaaaazy yesterday night. I was incredibly demoralised and disheartened thanks to Paper 1 and the very hard mock paper the teachers uploaded. Thank God for His wisdom and guidance. This is A Math man.

Jessie once told me that God is a God who does great miracles for one with great faith, and small (but still miraculous nevertheless) miracles for those with small faith. I think God gives me little miracles to constantly remind me that He's there and I can always rely on Him. I remember how I kept praying for an A2 for Chinese Os even though it seemed quite impossible, and a little voice in my head mocked, "Why not pray for an A1, then?" and I simply thought "That's just crazy impossible, it'll never happen no matter what". I mean, I can't even do primary school Chinese. And I ended up getting an A1! I think this just helped me be reminded that God's always here for me and he can take care of my problems as long as I push them all to Him and rely on His guidance.

Practically camped at Sumay's house from Tuesday to today because her mum agreed to help me with Math. I'm totally indebted to her. I actually feel like I live in Sumay's house now.


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I like studying in the library with friends (who study), it's always productive.
6B'05 mates! Derrick and Rachel. Primary school days, ah. I just realised that I actually used to sit beside the both of them in P5.

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Guess who needs a haircut.
(Jessie, another ah lian shot for you!)
I think my fringe's quite okay when it's more to the side and doesn't totally cover my right eye though,
(Crap I look so weird)
but it's impossible to make it stay like that for more than two seconds. My fringe keeps getting into my eyes when I don't clip it up. It hurts. ):

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Mum: Mark, I got you some reading material! *reads from the paper* Acne - its types, its causes and its solutions.

Mark: Er... I'll read it later.

Me: *laughs*

Mum: Karen, don't laugh ah. You've been there done that. In fact, you stayed there.

Where got!!! My complexion was in a frightening state two years ago, yah, because of Chingay (the makeup was so heavy during the Chingay & SYF period that a lot of pimples started appearing and my mum kept getting stronger and stronger face wash to get rid of them without knowing that my skin is extremely sensitive so it just got worse) but it's definitely a lot better now lor. I mean, it's obviously still far from perfect but definitely much better.

3 hours of sleep before an A math paper?

Shit.

Trying to do the Mock Paper the A Math teachers uploaded. I feel like crying. There are so many I just can't seem to get the correct answers for. I'm giving up NOW. I'm getting up at 5 tomorrow to go to Sumay's house because her mum's going to tutor me (gosh she's totally my saviour) and I haven't even packed my bag yet.

Guess who's going to fall asleep during the A Math Os tomorrow.

Pray for me.

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I'm really sorry about how boring and typical-personal-blog-ish the posts have become. I don't really have the time to think about deep things like I love to ): I promise I'll start to do more profound thinking about the world and how corrupted it is after the Os.

HAHAHA A MATH IS DRIVING ME MAD

Stupid bell curve

I think I did pretty badly for A Math. Didn't do 19 marks' worth of questions and made a stupid stupid mistake that cost me 1 mark, so that leaves me with 60/80 = 75% on the dot. If the bell curve goes even 0.1% higher I won't get my A1. Then again, there's still Paper 2 tomorrow. PRAY FOR ME!!!!

I really want to go to Trinity, but I doubt I'll be able to afford it unless I get a scholarship, and since I was actually aiming for an L1R5 raw score of 9 it'll take a miracle for me to get a really good raw score, like THE BEST raw score aka. 6, so that I might be able to get a scholarship. Might. And so I need all the A1s I can get. Thank goodness I've got more than enough CCA points (about 33 I think) so I'll be able to get two points deducted - which means now I've got to aim for 4 points.

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A MATH PAPER TWOOOOO OMGGGGG

At least E Math was okay. My E Math score's definitely more than 90% (I wrote all my answers down for Sumay's mum to mark :D) so my A1's pretty secure, right? I doubt the bell curve will rise to 90%.

!!!

E math

was okay. I copied all my answers down and compared them with Cui Xiao, Janey, Teryne and Yingyan later on. :D We're the best right.
I did the sinx=1/2 question wrongly, I did it in terms of pi. For the number patterns question I left my answer as 7(6-n)+3, didn't expand it, I hope they'll accept it. I wrote 70 5/6 for the percentage question while a lot of people wrote 70.8, I hope they'll accept my answer because I left it as a fraction. For the depth question my answer was 2 seconds but it was a completely random guess so my working made no sense, I hope they'll look only at the answers.

Will be sleeping over at Sumay's, will be doing A Math tonight even though tomorrow's E Math Paper 2. I've got this little bit of hope that I just might be able to get an A1 for A Math, so I want to fight for that. Pray for me (:


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It's been two years -
since the 27th of October 2006.

I thought of you again today
and the tears started flowing uncontrollably.

I thought I'd be stronger by now.

I hope I'll be strong enough to endure this

Guin's right. This whole month will be one long, painful journey, and I'll be spending the days blasting fast Korean songs like Gee and Heartbreaker and Amigo and forcing myself not to think about how I screwed the paper, and move on.

English was okay, actually, but the bad parts of something always leave a more lasting effect than the good ones, so it seems disastrous to me.

I did Q3 for Compo - Write about an occasion when an attempt to help led to unexpected consequences for the helper. My compo was 5 pages long man.

I wrote about how I was part of the most popular clique (and the "leader" was Kylie, some rich bitch) and this girl, Kylie, went to bully a short fat plain girl called Linda, who I knew from preschool but always came across to me as a terribly shy and friendless person. So on my way home on the day Kylie bullied Linda I happened to see Linda and talked to her a little in an attempt to make her feel better, but Linda ended up making me think a lot about something instead.

We were on the beach near my house watching the sun set together and Linda asked me why I bothered befriending Kylie, and all I could say was "She's cool". Then she asked what my passion and purpose in life was and I was stumped. All I knew was that Kylie was some popular girl and everyone was dying to be her friend and I was one. And I asked Linda about her own passion and why she was so quiet, and she said that she actually loved ballet even though she was fat. (Who watched the So You Think You Can Dance auditions? This damn fat girl was an amazing dancer.)

So yeah she made me think about my purpose in life and everything and as the days passed and I thought more about things, Kylie was beginning to find me less interesting. Then one day I just decided to leave the group and befriend Linda, and spend the days trying to find my passion and goal in life, instead of just wandering around life aimlessly and going with the flow.

Functional writing - 3 pages long. I don't know if it's Formal or Informal but Rupa says they'll probably just read from "Dear Past Pupil" onwards because the question said that we should begin our letter that way. I also didn't talk about the other 2 options but I don't see a need to because my task is to invite the alumni to a play to commemorate the Principal's retirement (my choice of event), so why should we have to talk about the other options considered?

Compre - I rewrote half of it three times and I copied all my answers onto the question paper so that perhaps I'd be able to get Mrs Rupa to check them later on, but at a high price:

Summary - I DIDN'T FINISH MY SUMMARY.

I'm really ****ed up about that now. I wrote all the unimportant points and the points that I know are strong ones were at the end and I didn't write those. In the end I just handed up my draft together with my incomplete summary. I hope I put the draft at the back - I was freaking out so much and my hands were shaking so badly that I'm not sure if I put it at the back or not.

Thank you Amanda for the hug, and thank you so much Guin for encouraging me; without you I don't think I would have made it past today. Love you to death Guin.

E Math tomorrow.

Though hope is frail, it's hard to kill.

Pray for me.

PRAY FOR ME

OKAY, OS ARE TOMORROW. ENGLISH = A1. MUST. People PLEASE PRAY FOR ME I MUST NOT FAIL MY COMPRE, please pray for me people I'm freaking out and I NEED THAT A1. At least 25/30 for Compo, 23/30 for Functional Writing, 18/25 for Compre and Summary. AT LEAST. PLEASE.

FREAKING OUT NOW. ENGLISH MUST GET A1 OMG

SHIT I WANT TO DIE I did three essays for Mrs Rupa to mark - Flight, Destruction and Prejudice - and two were out of point and one was only very average.

SHIT PLEASE PRAY FOR ME PLEASE I MUST SCORE DAMN WELL FOR ENGLISH PLEASE PLEASE PRAY FOR ME

Before a blessing Satan tries to take over you.

I need to calm my nerves. I can't let Satan block me from looking at God's glory. Not now. Please God, clear my mind, help me through this, calm me down, I know you can guide me through this.

Trinity

Trinity college (Melbourne) is really starting to appeal to me, it's like a JC that has subjects like "Environment and Development" and "Media and Communications"

But I can't afford to go there. ))))):

$$$$$$$$20,900

WHY WHY WHY I really want the courses )))):

Wow

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Interesting, I've got 11 visitors from Australia, 11 from US, 5 from UK, 1 from New Zealand, 1 from Poland and 1 from an UNKNOWN country :O

Hello, world! ((((((((((((((((:

Oh and the Americans can go and read about my rant on Beyonce and the Australians can read my post about Australian universities (and comment please)!

Eh this is fascinating. Howcome so few people tag? ):

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I'm watching Meet The Natives again - about a few Papua New Guinea tribesmen going to England for a cultural exchange. Oh please watch it it's on Nat Geo it's a really good show.

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My wonderful spankin' English teacher.

明珠老师，我绝对不会让你失望的！

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I just reunited with my kindergarten friend! Lydia Metzger, who migrated to France when we were in K2.

Lydia and me.

One of the reasons I love Facebook. Mark Zuckerberg totally deserves to be one of the richest billionares. (He invented Facebook in his Harvard Uni dorm room btw :O)

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This is the last photo I took of Crescent on Friday, the last school day before the Os:

And now, goodbye.

Two sentences

Yesterday on the 22nd of October there were 87 unique visitors to my blog (according to Statcounter) - and only one tag. ):
Tag leh people )))))))))):

I won't tolerate being ordinary for long.

I'm a task-oriented introvert, but I'll learn. I'll learn to speak up, I'll learn to be daring and not be afraid of failure, I'll learn to be sociable, I'll learn to be well-liked, I'll learn to grow out of my timid shell.
I know I'm special and I know there's something inside me waiting to be unleashed.
I won't be hidden, unnoticed. I won't be this ordinary.
Someday I shall rise up above the earth and prove my worth.

God gave us all life for a reason. I won't tolerate sitting here. I want to make a change. I want to leave my mark - and not a pathetic one like the stuff I wrote on the table upon leaving Crescent:


I want people to really know me, I want to do something to change the world.

That's why I want to be heard.

That's why I hope one day the world will hear my opinions. Through my little blog first, and then through the media. Newspapers, magazines - I want to be a columnist. Like Jason Hahn and SM Ong and Colin Goh, I want to make people laugh and feel they can relate to me. But more than that - I want to contribute to the world. I want my opinions about things that matter to be made known. Things like global warming, growing up, infatuation, hormones and teen sex. I want to make society think. I want to make a change. I want us to reflect on our actions, the destruction we're causing, the morals we're losing.

That's the only reason I want to take Mass Communication and that's why I want a career in writing.

Now you know.

I want to sing too. I want to be a backup singer because backup singers are the real singers - the ones who really depend on their voices for a living, who don't need to be good dancers/lookers/actors/hosts as well to be popular. They can be themselves while performing on stage. They can do what they really want - singing - without having the worries of a singer, who's supposed to be "all-rounded". But I also want to be known - so that I can bring people closer to me and let more people know about my opinions, to achieve my ultimate goal.

Singing for church would be awesome too but I doubt I'd make it. It'd be lovely to use your talent to bring people to God. I want to do that through my writing too.

I will.

I hope this will be my last post

Check this out:



SM Ong (The New Paper), Colin Goh (Straits Times & 8 Days), Jason Hahn (8 Days-First Person)
Love these 3 columnists. Why are all three guys? ):

O LEVELS IN 4 DAYS' TIME

My brother's new PS3

It's not Guitar Hero, it's Rock Band. There's a guitar, a drum set and a microphone. The song selection's pretty crappy though. They don't have Avril ): They have, like, Spongebob and Metallica (LOL) and Maroon 5 and Green Day and Evanescence but most are stuff I doubt many have heard of before.

Thank you for being an angel -

sometimes we have to take risks to succeed. I risked humiliation, regret, rejection and my reputation with a lot of the things I've done. This time, after years of being brought down, I just might succeed.

Once I added a Fairfield guy on MSN thinking it was JJ because that Fairfield guy gave Sumay his email address and told her that was JJ's. That resulted in so much shit hahaha I actually sent JJ a personal message on the JJFC forum telling him that a Fairfield guy hacked his email account and scolded vulgarities at a friend of mine. Ah, how gullible we were two years ago, but without mistakes how would we learn?