hold fast

years ago in sec 4, perhaps about a month or two after the breakup, i was in the car with my mum on the way home. probably after school. we were driving in silence and we were already in our neighbourhood approaching our street when she asked me if i was over the relationship yet. and i said yes i was. and she probed further, asked questions about the relationship. and i got very annoyed and said YES I AM OVER IT STOP TALKING ABOUT IT and tears were streaming down my face. and my mum said if you were truly over it you wouldn't be crying. and i thought, that's ridiculous. it'd be impossible to ever think about it without crying.