Sometimes God goes about a terribly long-winded route to take us places, when we feel He could have just given us the blessing sooner, without having to go through a forest of crap. But isn't it amazing that sometimes He does it because He knows our weakness, yet loves us so much that He will not even give us a chance to fall away from His promised blessings? That even if we rebel against Him and try to run away, it won't stop Him from leading us to where He wants us to go.
I feel this speaking to me in a very powerful way, especially in the midst of all this, after weeks of mental turmoil.
Thank You, God, that you know I'm weak and rebellious and full of doubt, just as the Israelites were, yet You won't let go of the blessing and legacy you have promised for my life, the goal You have placed in my heart.