I BET YOU DON'T KNOW WHY WE GIVE PRESENTS DURING CHRISTMAS!

BET Y'ALL DON'T KNOW RIGHT!

- Happy Birthday My Lord! [Reading] says (11:19 PM):

cuz on the day jesus was born... God gave the best thing to us.... His Son... Jesus Chirst... so it became a tradition to give presents during christmas (following Gods example... bringing happiness to other's life by giving thm smthg)

and God is the God of Light... thats why xmas is full of lights... and did you notice, without light, we would be lost... (representation of leadership)

(Remember that song? "The God I know, light of the city..." :D)

Jt told me a lot about cell group today. Jan Mad and Jt went. It was Jt's first time. My parents didn't allow me to go.

The stuff she's telling me is amazing!

- Happy Birthday My Lord! [Reading] says (11:24 PM):

today was a blessed day... whn others spoke in tongues i felt an urge to speak too... but i was afraid... so i controlled... then i told jason... thn he said that god had given me the gift already.. it's whether i wanted to use it anot... its controllable remember? thn i was like "oh"

...so now Jt Maddie and Jan can all speak tongues...

I'm happy for them, I really am.

I'm fighting but I'm getting nowhere. They've got God. Now it's just me, again.

Lord I want so much to receive You, to love You, to get to know You more, to be closer to You. I'm trying, but I don't seem to be getting anywhere. Maybe Jessie was right, I hope she's right. And I'll live in the hope that she's right. I'll keep on trying, keep on hoping, keep on fighting, keep on trying to get closer to You. I need faith. Help me Lord, help me see that it's You who's been here for me all along. I need to have faith. I don't know why but no matter how hard I try to tell myself it was God who helped me through this and that, inside, I'm still doubting. What's there to doubt? I hate how I doubt.

Help me Lord, I don't want to doubt You anymore. I want to have faith in You, I want to know You more.

Jessie asked me a relatively simple question that struck me; I didn't know how to answer it at all.

"Why do you want to be closer to God?"

You know, I have absolutely no idea how to answer that. I just do.

Why??! Someone help me.