remedy for heartache

at assembly

at the bleachers

let the tears flow

break down when you try to say something

cry all you can

until you've no more strength in your wrenching heart to squeeze out those drops of fire

then wash them away

(the fire, the pain)

decide that

if he isn't crying for you you shan't cry too

get some dignity get some self-love

and quit acting like a desperate shameless dog

clean up the mess

retie your hair

change into a nice new oversized comfy top that reads 'I <3 ME'

be so, so grateful for the sister you never had

who helps you dry your tears

and forgoes a free lunch for you

go shopping for a birthday gift with your pals

be thankful, again, that she reminds you to be happy

get some time alone

call up a smurf and say

'i wanna go somewhere and lie down in grass and not say a word

and forget about everything'

so while you're waiting half an hour

go get some fresh air and call up the chinaman and talk about nothing, everything

and repeat the phrase 'life is good' until you start believing it

then spot the short smurf in his untucked tee

let him insist on carrying your bag for you

walk and walk and walk and walk and walk and walk in the darn hot sun

to nowhere. tire yourself out

cross a road, a bridge, take the longest detour to a

hut

turn on some music and don't say a word and let your mind go blank

the person lying on the bench on the other end of the hut, he's guarding your thoughts

because even in silence, a friend's company is all the assurance you need

when the weather is cooler, go to that pretty grass patch like you wanted to

it's a beautiful day, the clouds so pretty, the sky so blue

get a full view of the sunset right in front of you

unfortunately, you don't get to witness the brilliance of the sunset when

the sun hides behind impenetrable dark clouds -

a reminder: happiness can't come into your life

when you envelop it with darkness

talk about kindergarten and crying as a child

to take your mind off the troubles of teenagehood

on the way home, alone, drown yourself in party rock anthem & just dance

drown yourself in the beats, can't think about anything else

go home and

let the morning tears translate into midnight words

and sleep as soon as possible

and be so thankful for the Council and every single person you've met there

and take comfort

in the knowledge

of written, but never spoken, words of a few days ago

and hope they still hold true