lips of nicotine; oh heart won't you die

"I want to spend the day with you if possible. I'd like to spend as much time with you as I can unless of course I'm coming on way too strong right now and scaring you in which case I'll begin backpedaling immediately..."

- Hal (Proof, David Auburn)

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April:

I don't know who or when, but someday

he'll come along, he whom I understand and whom I love as a friend, he who knows my fears and vulnerability and doesn't mind. He'll look at me and say he

loves me

and I'll risk my all

again,

go running after death (or a lifetime of pain) into his arms and letting go of the life I struggle to pull together

like running towards the edge of a cliff and letting go.