she was from 2E1, guang yang sec school, laogong’s classmate. apparently she was a very cheerful girl, quite popular. but sometime in feburary she started becoming super emo, cried a lot, and no one knew why because before she could tell anyone why she’d just start bawling. some people just didn’t care about her anymore but her best friends comforted her even though they didn’t know why she was so upset.
sometime last week, during recess time laogong was sitting at the lockers, and yixin sat beside her. laogong was quite shocked, because she wasn’t close to yixin, and didn’t really know what to say, so the both of them had quite a silent half an hour. but at the end of recess, yixin unexpectedly reached over and hugged laogong. laogong was quite shocked, haha, but anyway the point is according to yixin’s friends, she was very grateful to laogong.
sometimes, when we’re feeling down, we just need someone beside us, who lets us know that someone cares, that someone is willing to just be there for us even if you don’t feel like or don’t trust her enough to tell our problems to. (:
anyway, later on, yixin’s friends told laogong that yixin wanted to tell her that she just found out she had second-stage leukemia and she was hospitalised, to be released on Tuesday. but noone in the class knew anything about it yet, yixin asked them not to tell.
so laogong went to visit her today in the hospital in the afternoon.
and later in the evening today, yixin’s friend called laogong to tell her that yixin had died in a car accident.
yixin died in a car accident today.
okay, 3 of my grandparents have died already, but i was never close to them, so i don’t really know anyone close to me who’ve died before. but really, it’s quite freaky, how you realise someone who’s beside you right now may not be able to see you again ever.
i mean we all think, duh whatever, it’s never going to happen to me or anyone around me. but death is so… real. i can’t imagine imagine not being able to see my friend EVER again.
sumay sarah laogong janice maddie celeste amelia shermin lingling nadine mr ho jessie, whoever. it’s just weird lah.
:/ nevermind.
it’s quite scary, how vulnerable life is eh? all you’ve worked so hard for, everything, gone in a second. i think the scary thing about death is how it’s so unpredictable, it may happen anytime, you don’t really have much time to prepare and stuff. yixin knew she was going to die, but she didn’t even expect it so soon, and she was already dwelling in misery, i don’t think she really enjoyed the last few days of her life.
i guess it’s really important that we cherish each day of our lives and live every day to the fullest. i realise how lucky i am and everything, when i pray each night before i go to sleep and thank Him for everything - that i’ve got great friends, people who care for me, people who help me with my qian fan although i keep screaming half the time, friends who trust me, friends i can trust, someone who loves me, that i’ve got jj, i’ve got music, i’ve got something to live for, that i don’t have financial difficulties, that i’m not some smoking-hokkien-vulgarities-spouting-exam-failing ah lian, that i’ve got my tablet pc, that i haven’t failed a single test since the start of the year, that miss joanna lim is such a caring teacher, that i return home safely every single day. even if something terrible happened that day, i realise there’s always a positive outcome to everything.
i guess i’m really thankful that i can be optimistic when i want to, too.
so anyway.
cherish life (:
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