dawned

now that you said it, i realise it's pretty probable.
and it all suddenly seems so vulnerable.
and it dawns on me that we may not be friends after this at all.
now i'm too afraid to think of the future.
will we be close sisters then? or will we have stopped keeping in contact with each other, not caring anymore, treating all this as just some distant memory?
i do hope we'll continue to be the best of friends no matter what, because i'd hate to lose you altogether.
but i guess the chances are pretty low, and i can't do anything about it.
well i guess i'll just have to leave it up to God to determine our ending.
but i hope it won't be one too painful.
:/